Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Shiny little danglers appear as I blink my sleepy eyes. Furling up… disappearing into nowhere… I feel light, slightly woozy… blinking my eyes, real, unreal, it all gets bewildering at times. Frankly wonder why it's so important to keep it real at all. Lying in anther dimension of reality, I can hear the soft sound of my wind chimes. Met a nun in my dream, peaceful, old, beautiful. I remember asking her about how Sister Basil was doing. Sister Basil is a wonderful nun who used to live in the convent attached with my school. I didn’t know her much, but simply adored her. There was a light around her, the type that makes you feel good being around, leading you to quite simply just liking her very much, even if you don’t end spending much time with her. The nun I met in my dreams told me that something terrible had happened to Sister Basil.

Early morning dreams. I’m getting a little superstitious about them. I sms’ed my friend in Chennai about my dream hoping she’d have some news of sister. And there came the reply, sister was suffering from Cancer.

No doubt, felt terrible that sister was going through such an ordeal. There are some people who one feels should never have to suffer, simply because of all the love they’ve achieved in spreading. Can’t really say anything more, but ask God to take care of her. If there is a God. There is right? Dunno. Maybe. Most probably not. Not really much to debate on considering either of the stands are basically based on personal opinions. On this topic, I prefer to have none.

More exams coming up, joined work as well. Been juggling a lot of balls for quite a while now. A little tired frankly, but then this is no time to get tired I guess. Aye, this is afterall, just the beginning.

15 comments:

Anonymous said...

is god there or not.... is actually a very subjective question, but till the time we can live happy and make others happy, life's worth living :)

Calvin said...

good luck with exams and work (you're working?!)..

'Been juggling a lot of balls for quite a while now' - there you go talking sports too! ;-))

The Wizard of Odd said...

*quietly hugs you*

"Nature's first green is gold,
Her hardest hue to hold.
Her early leaf's a flower;
But only so an hour.
Then leaf subsides to leaf.
So Eden sank to grief,
So dawn goes down to day.
Nothing gold can stay."

She lived a long, long, beautiful active life- And you and I know, that she would've said get on with it, with god's grace: coz you kids are just beginning.

And she's right : )

*amused little grin at saurabh's post*

Gul? Oh aye. Ace juggler. Its coz she has the artistic skill with life that Cobain had with lyrics & Music- and the basic strong ballast that comes with the saddu heritage :)

Which is why you going to be kicking ass with these exams, riiiiiiiite?

:)

Rite! Of passage even!!

[and pardon the bad pun- sic :-S]

Squid said...

even with my minimal interaction with her, i remember her humour & that twinkle in her eye more than anything else, and that is wat i'll miss most. She really was something else wasnt she? :)

Confuzzled said...

aha....working and studying....whoops!
cool....enjoy :)

Gul said...

keti- aye, she certainly was... but then like priya says i guess we just have to get on with it now.

priya- when u goin bum? not done any studying- im at a point when im getting scared just thinking of the amount i have to study and trying to run away from it all! dunno about kicking ass, just hope to make it this time around.

saurabh- i knew lotta ppl would get a kick outta that statement ;) thanks for the wishes... though next time ure wishing for me, wish that i dont have to face another bloddy exam for the rest of this life! im through wid em!

confuzzled- :) oui, i try, is been good till now i guess

anonymous- oui,well said. do leave a name next time around though, don't you feel wierd addressing yourself as anonymous!

Abhi said...

Just coz she may let go of this life deosnt mean anything bad , but the pain must be spared.n the fact that you remember her after so many years goes to show shes lived her life the way it shud hav been.

junat said...

not everyone gets wat they deserve and not everyone deserve what they get >>>
---- for better or for worse!!!!!!!!!

but look at this side of it --- u just had seen sister in ur school days and still u remember her as someone distinctly special . and u had no idea about wat is going on with her yet u realised that maybe she is in trouble...
there are many others like u who wud have met her at some point or the other and remember her. they too wud have felt just outta the bue that something is wrong with her ..
thus at this time of her life when she is going through such pain she has the love, sympathy & prayer of so many people ..... this is wat special people deserve and that is wat she is getting now....

god is not of this world ... if u believe in him he will be there

junat said...

god is there only if u want him to be there ... if u really want him to help sister then he will help her. if she want god to help her god will help her to get through this painful phase
and as for wat notion i get about the sister thru ur post she is gonna get though this phase in a better way than most of the common people wud..

Gul said...
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Gul said...

NOTE- a few days after posting this i found out that Sister passed away on 28th april.

Anonymous said...

The 11 1/2 footer strikes again.

Heard about Sister Basil from Priyanka. Really sad.

Best of luck with the exams...

Prashanth said...

u know what u invariably struck a chord in my head...i used to have this tutor,one miss jane nigly,when i was a kid...she eptomised kindness,patience and a load of other nice virtues...i felt really sad when after years i found out that she had passed away...but its really nice remembering all the nice things she s instilled in me...i wish i had had a premonition,may have written to her or somethin...sorry i had to post somethin so long...

Calvin said...

still pretty busy eh?! that 'STRESSED' caricature looks quite scary actually!!

junat said...

well for the anonymous person there aq thought about god =
GOD = A convenient hook for a pessimist upon which he can hang his miseries and misfortune and thus avail himself a temporary respite from the pain.For an optimist he represents the power that can be called upon to bail him out of occassional troubles with a little bribing( read coconuts and pav kilo pedas).